Thank you, Eugene.
You have taught me true humility with your life.
I wrote the following post on the 1st of January 2006, but removed it on 2nd January 2006 to respect the grief of his friends and relative. He is a great man and friend. He blessed and taught life. And this is my last tribute to him. I have many regrets for the things I have not told him. Sadly, this regrets will be with me for the rest of my life. Till I see you again brother....
Michael Kuan a.k.a WindyG
On 1st January 2006 at 4:45pm, a dear friend passed away. It is his new beginning at a happier place. I am not trying to be morbid as I truly believe that for him to die is gain. He suffered and fought for three years with his sickness. He fought a good fight and finished the race. He kept the faith. I wish I knew more about him. I wish I had spent more time with him. Right now, it is only important to me to know, if I could or should carry on the legacy he left behind. His passing signifies a beginning of another chapter of this fragile life of mine. Where will I go? What will I do? I don’t know yet. One thing I’m sure, that all things work out for the good for those who love Him. Thus, I must hold on to that love.
He lived his life plainly and with honor. He is gracious and humble. Bearing all, he remains generous to the last. He knew what matters to him and focused on it. After telling his passing to my mum; (whom I depend on for wisdom), she then made a profound statement that I believe will set the next course of action for me in this New Year. She said that whatever troubles, no matter how hard it is when we are going through it; it’s all going to end one day. That statement made my problems seems small. It made it easier to fight them. I met with my mentor in the evening of his passing. There I said to him… Whatever won’t matter, will never matter no matter how I want it to matter. Whatever matter, will matter regardless how much I want it to not matter. Confused? Go sit on it. Life is profoundly complicated yet it is also loudly simple. How I chose to see it will determine the actions I chose to take and thus determine the outcomes I cause to happen. In the end, there is no one left to blame. Maybe that sums up the problems of our lives. We all love to put the blame on something or someone. We want to absolve ourselves. Sadly, we can’t. We are the sum of our own choice. Whether we made those choices consciously or sub-consciously doesn’t matter. The fact is we made those choices.
With his passing, I learn to embrace life, to live more thankfully and to love more passionately. I will remember him for as long as I live. He will teach me when I fall, and encourage me that it is alright. I am grateful to what he sees in me that I couldn’t. His legacy left an imprint in my heart. I might be needed to shoulder a responsibility I might not be able to bear. But I will bear it if called upon. Until then, I stand ready not by my own strength, but by His Grace and with the faith of a dear friend. Godspeed my friend, I will see you soon. Intercede in prayer with our Savior for the people you left behind. Know and believe what you have done in your lifetime is not in vain. Pray for strength in our hearts when we miss you. And for wisdom when we fall short. You lived well but now you must rest. Till my journey too come to an end, I will see you and thank you personally for your life lived well.
a brother
Michael Kuan a.k.a WindyG
You have taught me true humility with your life.
I wrote the following post on the 1st of January 2006, but removed it on 2nd January 2006 to respect the grief of his friends and relative. He is a great man and friend. He blessed and taught life. And this is my last tribute to him. I have many regrets for the things I have not told him. Sadly, this regrets will be with me for the rest of my life. Till I see you again brother....
Michael Kuan a.k.a WindyG
On 1st January 2006 at 4:45pm, a dear friend passed away. It is his new beginning at a happier place. I am not trying to be morbid as I truly believe that for him to die is gain. He suffered and fought for three years with his sickness. He fought a good fight and finished the race. He kept the faith. I wish I knew more about him. I wish I had spent more time with him. Right now, it is only important to me to know, if I could or should carry on the legacy he left behind. His passing signifies a beginning of another chapter of this fragile life of mine. Where will I go? What will I do? I don’t know yet. One thing I’m sure, that all things work out for the good for those who love Him. Thus, I must hold on to that love.
He lived his life plainly and with honor. He is gracious and humble. Bearing all, he remains generous to the last. He knew what matters to him and focused on it. After telling his passing to my mum; (whom I depend on for wisdom), she then made a profound statement that I believe will set the next course of action for me in this New Year. She said that whatever troubles, no matter how hard it is when we are going through it; it’s all going to end one day. That statement made my problems seems small. It made it easier to fight them. I met with my mentor in the evening of his passing. There I said to him… Whatever won’t matter, will never matter no matter how I want it to matter. Whatever matter, will matter regardless how much I want it to not matter. Confused? Go sit on it. Life is profoundly complicated yet it is also loudly simple. How I chose to see it will determine the actions I chose to take and thus determine the outcomes I cause to happen. In the end, there is no one left to blame. Maybe that sums up the problems of our lives. We all love to put the blame on something or someone. We want to absolve ourselves. Sadly, we can’t. We are the sum of our own choice. Whether we made those choices consciously or sub-consciously doesn’t matter. The fact is we made those choices.
With his passing, I learn to embrace life, to live more thankfully and to love more passionately. I will remember him for as long as I live. He will teach me when I fall, and encourage me that it is alright. I am grateful to what he sees in me that I couldn’t. His legacy left an imprint in my heart. I might be needed to shoulder a responsibility I might not be able to bear. But I will bear it if called upon. Until then, I stand ready not by my own strength, but by His Grace and with the faith of a dear friend. Godspeed my friend, I will see you soon. Intercede in prayer with our Savior for the people you left behind. Know and believe what you have done in your lifetime is not in vain. Pray for strength in our hearts when we miss you. And for wisdom when we fall short. You lived well but now you must rest. Till my journey too come to an end, I will see you and thank you personally for your life lived well.
a brother
Michael Kuan a.k.a WindyG
