...it starts to rot.Just went through all my posts and found a lot of porno trackbacks on it. I allowed the problem to persist until it started flooding my email beyond the bearable. Whatever is dynamic will grow...let it remain a constant for too long, it starts to degenerate or if you prefer..decay.
Everything is subjected to this law...it is known as Thermodynamics...I think... Anyway, i found it to be true when i see it happening in the things, situations, and people around me. Relationships fall apart because it stopped growing. Incomes starts to drop because somebody stopped working. Economies falling out because someone decided to pull the plug.
Why then am i amazed when my life falls apart? I have many lives, my spiritual, social, mental, family, physical, recreational, financial, career and etc. Each demand effort. None of them move by its own. All require my attention or it WILL degenerate. This pass month has been a roller coaster ride that require me to make critical decisions. One particular decision was to let a few relationships die. I found peace when i allowed its demise as i felt it was killing what i want to live. It's hard to hold on...it's harder to let go.
Moving forward let me know I'm not there. Forgetting what is behind allow freedom to pursue a higher cause. Can i forget? Perhaps...with time. Will i forgive? Yes..I will. Forgive i will but i will not foolishly open my heart to the aggressor that did not come to build but to kill, steal and destroy. Naivety is a curse to avoid with desire for wisdom as priority. If something is killing you...kill it first. There will be times when it seems like you are wrong when you give it up. Then again, you may be seen foolish to hold on. Seek wisdom then. For in some deaths, it produce lives. Life in its fullest.
Freed,
Michael Kuan a.k.a WindyG
