One BIG ZERO!!!

Sigh...sigh... SIGH!!!!!

Ever wonder why people or yourself seems to be running around in a circle?? We started out knowing where we want to go but not where we are. Or vice versa. Then find out where we are but not where we want to go. What we want is not what we want anymore. Where we are turns out to be where we never have been afterall. Confused? Downright you are! So am i. It seems to me whenever i get into situations like this, it plainly tells me that there are lessons i have not learn and will repeat a confusing term in life until i learn it well. I can choose to run away...or better yet claim i have learned it well! Sadly, life don't give two cents worth on whether you think you learn or run. It will make sure it achieve what it set out to do. Don't believe me? Eh huh...like i care. Go ahead and try it and prove it otherwise. In the meantime, i'm picking myself up from where i stopped. (Which is at zero...) And make sure i get to a point further from zero. (A minus one is at least somewhere ya?) Sigh...sigh...SIGH!!

I seriously think i have issues. Anyone can give free counselling??

Michael (Don't Know) Kuan anymore

Judgements

Doubt yourself and you doubt everything you see. Judge yourself and you see judges everywhere. But if you listen to the sound of your own voice, you can rise above doubt and judgment.......and you can see forever. ~Nancy Kerrigan

Show me someone who don't judge, I'll show someone not judged. We are who we are by a corrupted nature. Possibly be redeemed in full for what we done, if we allow ourselves to be. The same platform we enthusiastically put people on is reserved for us by someone else. ~~~WindyG

Arrrggghh!!!! I am so pissed!! By being judged? HELL NO!! By being a poor judge. A poor judge of character I am. I thought and think but never confirmed. Too many times i fogged my eyes with goodwill only to be slapped in the face for being a complete moron. This Chinese proverb becomes real to me now. "Zhi Ren, Zhi Mian, Bu Zhi Xing." (Loosely translated, it means you know a person and his face, but never his heart.) It sucks to know that i have no one to blame!!! Sigh...no point, the "damage" is done. Or in his "eyes", I have done enough "damage". I stand accused but not vindicated.

I hold myself to remove the log out of my eyes before I attempt to remove a speck in my brother's eyes. (Luke 6:41) Sadly, what you demand of yourself should never be demanded on others. That’s GRACE!! Of course we should spur each other! NOT DEMAND YOU IMBECILE!!! Ironically, my Judge says he demand himself before his demand of others. BULLS**T!! More like he demand of others what he have not achieved.

Well...after all the pissed words and anger fists, nothing much can be done now. I have to thrash it out again. Tomorrow a whole new cycle might start again. You know what starts judgment among humans? Its was born out of justice but corrupted by pride and prejudice. I pray i be dumb and deaf tomorrow. To find my Manasseh and let it go. I have my pride to be broken, and prejudice to be blurred. I ask that i grow up to forget who say what and what say who. To listen to what's not being said and to discern but never judge. Lastly, to those who judge or is judged, listen well. Let just do what Paul did okie?? (Philippians 3:12 ~ "Not that I have already attained or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me.")

Judged Judge,
Michael Kuan a.k.a WindyG